Suspended in Dusk (Previously Too Embarrassed to Release) Lyrics

"Damn me father, for I must sin..."

Four centuries of this damned immortality
Yet, I did not ask to be made. Why?
I will never again feel your sun upon my face
Or the comfort of a grave
I am not alive and I am not dead
This is hell on earth

How can I possibly explain this eternal youth?
When I can do nothing but sit by
As my loves grow old and wither
And with each of them take a fragment of my heart
And prolong this endless winter
It is October's perpetual agony
It is the shadow realm

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Father please forgive him
For he knows not what to do

With every victim I pray for my own death
And as much as I love the night
I curse the moon's eerie glow
This bloodlust that drags me to forever
The toxic rays of dawn condemn me to limbo
I am cursed to dwell in grey autumnal twilight
I am suspended in the dusk

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Father please forgive him
For he knows not what to do
Father please forgive him
For he knows not what to do